I have a Gateway Worship book that I like to play through and sing. For years, I skipped over a beautiful song entitled, "Save Me." I suppose the good girl in me simply saw it as a check mark on a list. "Save Me". Got it. I'm Saved. I don't need to sing that one.
I know God has saved me from my sins. The blood of Jesus continually and completely provides forgiveness. And I believe this.
But God has offered to rescue me from ME. The resurrected body of Christ signifies life available to me so that I might live abundantly. It would not appear that I fully believe this.
I continue to strive and serve and produce and perform.
This ME living. Not Christ living in me.
I am my own enemy in the battle for surrender.
(Yes, surrender seems to be a battle for me, at times.)
Now I sing this song several times a week.
"I love you, O LORD, my strength.
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge...
I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised,
and I am saved." ~ Psalm 18